healthy(ish) comfort dinner

so this week is pretty insane for me–one of those where everything is happening at once.

for me, stress = tummy issues.

i’m not going to go into detail (you’re welcome) but when i’m having tummy dramz i crave carbs, carbs and more carbs. and maybe an egg sandwich every once in a while. also i’m pretty sure it’s a scientifically proven fact that stress makes you crave comfort food. on the other hand, i know continuing to eat healthy foods that agree with me will keep me functioning at my best. 

SO in the interest of honoring my cravings, and giving my tummy what it wants and actually consuming a plant based item every once in a while, i concocted this dinner.

1. frozen veggies…which i did not take a picture of.

what can i say, i had just gotten home from class and i was too lazy. but i used a combo of frozen corn and whole foods’ 365 “california blend” which is cauliflower, carrots and broccoli. i mixed these two together in a bowl, covered with plastic wrap and popped them in the microwave for 4-5 minutes, added sea salt and let sit.

2. amy’s lactose free frozen mac and cheese. aka my new favorite thing. it tastes like real mac and cheese, i promise you.

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i cooked it in the microwave according to package instructions and added sea salt when it was done.

3. i poured the mac and cheese on top of the veggies. and sat on the couch watching criminal minds.

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4. i ate it.

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does this even count as a recipe?!?

 

p.s. i’m adding “get better at food photography” to my long term to do list. 

growing pains

fun fact: part of the reason i became a librarian is that you pretty much never have to wear a suit unless you’re presenting at a conference or are super important or something.

i look weird in suits. i tried one on once and was like who the fuck is that?

so as i’ve started to verge on becoming a real grown up adult with a real grown up job, i’ve had to start figuring out how to look legitimate and still like myself.

here are some of my recent attempts:

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this mirror encourages my selfie habit.

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librarians and cardigans…it’s a thing right???

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this outfit and the next are from working at my circulation job at the library, aka i can and should wear jeans but i still need to be put together so people take me seriously.

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i love this cream sweater. it’s one of my all time favorite clothing purchases, and i wear it embarassingly often during the winter. come on, it has ELBOW PATCHES. this is me wearing it for a date with “leather” leggings:

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from this post you have learned that i love scarves, sweaters and selfies.

you’re welcome.

also apparently every room in my apartment photographs yellow.

strength.

“you’re all strong enough to do it, you just need to learn how.”

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those words of wisdom came from one of my yoga teachers, in reference to headstand pose, but i can’t seem to get them off my mind.

from what i’ve seen and experienced in the past 25 years, humans are pretty incredible creatures. they can survive abuse, combat, poverty, assault, tragedy, illness and the everyday let downs and frustrations that come with being a human in a world of other humans.

it’s easy to fall in to the trap of viewing someone’s life from the outside and deciding that it’s perfect, and that they have never feel the pain or loneliness or discomfort you’re dealing with. then i remember that i’m that person to someone. i’m sure that in the past day or week or month someone has seen me, interacted with me or looked at my facebook page and thought “wow, her life is great. she’s so happy and is always doing fun things and just having a blast.” while i am very content and happy with my life, the road to this place has been bumpy.

Sometimes

i remember one of my favorite history professors, a woman in her mid-thirties who was in her first year of teaching at a major university, telling our class how when she was in the process of getting her phd she would tell herself that once she got her dream job, all her problems would be solved. everything would fit into place and it would be rainbows and butterflies forever. if she could just achieve this one thing, she told herself, she would never have to worry about anything else.

spoiler alert: she got the job, and life didn’t magically become perfect.

embarassingly enough, i used to think this way about marriage. i made up my mind that when my college boyfriend and i got engaged the rest of my life would be just peachy. that off hand comment my professor made in the five minutes before class started was a much needed smack of reality.

as a devotee of “the west wing “and all things sorkin, i feel the need to share some leo mcgarry wisdom:

This guy’s walkin’ down a street when he falls in a hole. The walls are so steep he can’t get out. A doctor passes by and the guy shouts up, “Hey you! Can you help me out?” The doctor writes a prescription, throws it down in the hole, and moves on. Then a priest comes along and the guy shouts up, “Father, I’m down in this hole; can you help me out?” The priest writes out a prayer, throws it down in the hole and moves on. Then a friend walks by. “Hey, Joe, it’s me. Can ya help me out?” And the friend jumps in the hole. Our guy says, “Are ya stupid? Now we’re both down here.” The friend says, “Yeah, but I’ve been down here before and I know the way out.

life is hard and painful, but we were built for it. we’re strong enough to handle whatever is thrown our way, especially if we know when to ask for a little help from someone who has been there before.

and always listen to leo mcgarry.

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